I'm baaaaaack...oh. and I could eat.

Okay, I may have been gone for a while (both in a writing posts sort of way as well as an out-of-town sort of way) but I have returned.

I am continuing to track my calories, and try. try. try to limit my sodas every day.  Today I only had one soda but it was a giant diet coke from the fountain at Target (if I can get 49 ounces of anything into a cup it should only count as one beverage right?)

Truth be told, although I am diligent about tracking my calories, there are many days that I struggle with keeping them under 1300 a day.  Then there are the days (today!) when it is 2:00 and I haven't eaten a thing...so I have a piece of cake and some ice cream and then several (read: 8) slices of delicious asiago bread dipped into the deeeeeeelicious sauce from my weight watchers chicken in white wine recipe.  I was soooo hungry and it was sooooo yummy...that bread never had a chance of being leftovers for tomorrow (even though I bought two demi loaves so that I would have left overs tomorrow...BWAHAHAHAHA.)

Years ago, when I lived with my two children and a cat I would joke (only I was serious) that because I sometimes had money for cat food (and it wasn't like my cat ate the "good stuff"--he ate Meow Mix exclusively...that is like the spam of cat food) and sometimes I didn't have money for cat food and my kids would put bits of bread in the cat dish (pathetic I know) that the cat wouldn't eat...I was CERTAIN that I was going to give my cat an eating disorder.  Seriously...the poor thing gobbled it up when he had it like there was no tomorrow...because for him...it really might not be there tomorrow.  He didn't know.  Oh My God.  I am that cat.  I am that cat when it comes to yummy things.  It is almost like I think that I wont be able to eat tasty things again in the near future and so I devour tasty things as I encounter them...and this is America people!  Tasty things are everywhere!!

So this is where I am now.  I weigh 185 point something.  I set a goal for myself to weigh less than 182 pounds before school starts again this year.  I have a week and a half to to get there.  I know that I should consider adding exercise to my daily routine (weekly routine?  monthly routine? annually?).  I know this, and I want to do this...but I really don't want to do this.  :)  Yesterday for instance, I was arguing with myself about walking the 2.75 miles around the lakes (located mere feet from my front door) and as I was making the case to myself to go...and a very good case it was (I was winning) myself was nodding and pretending to agree WHILE quietly putting on my comfy pajamas.  Damn.  No walk.  Again.

I decided to not buy any new clothes.  (what?!)  I have about 7 dresses and a few skirts and pants that I will simply rotate through (sorry class...you will be seeing the SAME outfits over and over again) until I get to the next size.  I have 2 dresses that are that smaller size and when I get there I will get a few more and cycle through those until I get to the next size.  See? I have it all planned out.  It just needs to happen now.  Easy Peasy.  Thank GOD I have that plan.  Whew.  Now because that is all ironed out...I can relax (and not exercise) for a while.

Okay.  Here are a few unflattering photos that were taken within the last two weeks.  I will soon be donning some exercise clothes and taking additional pics (not exercising) in order to track progress.  A girl can't have too many "Before" pictures can she? 

I was taking a soil sample from the desert biome at the Bioshpere 2 in this picture.  My pants aren't happy.  Neither am I..that "soil" is ROCK. 

On the beach at the Biosphere 2.  My shorts aren't happy, but I am.

Me and more unhappy clothing outside of the Bioshpere 2.  After this was taken, I quickly cropped my gut and fat ankles out of this picture and posted it on facebook.  :)